So our house has been a very dreary place as of late. We have lost so many of our dogs lately that it seems to have sucked the life out of our house. We have Gatty and he loves to run and play stick but he is NOT a house dog by any stretch of the imagination, and as I have said before CeCe is not a good house hound iether cause she is a beagle with a snout for trouble and if there is any way to get into it she will find it very fast. And we tried. OML we have tried with them both. We can’t stand that it is so quiet and even though we are both home we feel lonely. We love each other but when you are accustomed to having a furbaby with you all the time when they are gone it’s miserable. And we sit on the couch together and it’s just not right. We spend all the time in the world together but our hearts are just broken. there is a HUGE hole where once there was love and laughter and funny antics by the furbabies now there is sadness and tears from both sides. We hate it.
Friday night however as fate would have it we found a litter of pups, aussie/border collies and they were just listed and we heard about them and made a call. Well I made a call and set an appointment to just go get some puppy breath therapy, thinking that might help to ease some of the hurt. Puppy breath is something that cures my heart, don’t ask me why but it seems to anytime I have been really down. There is just something about a cuddly puppy with the sweet puppy snuffin breath. Kinda like a newborn freshly bathed and lotioned up. You just want to snuff them up!
Anywho………So I made the appointment to go and look at them as it was only a few blocks from work and I had to be there anyway and had other errands after that. Just to see what else is out there in case something fell through on the litter I am waiting till July for. It’s a long wait let me tell you and I have a fear of something happening and iether the breeding never takes place, or there is not a puppy in the litter that picks me………I have major fears right now about alot of things and that is just one more that keeps haunting me. So I prayed on it and thought about it and asked for the path and the right thing to do and something told me to go looking. Not to buy but to look and keep it in mind just in case something didn’t go as planned. So I made the commitment and went to look. I thought many times about cancelling out and not going but something we pushing me to go and see. I even dreamed that I told them I couldn’t make it and then I woke up crying in my sleep over it so at that point I just went. No expectations, no wants to take one home. Had to be perfect or nothing and I was set on it not being anything spectacular and leaving with nothing more than a happy heart to hold a puppy for a bit and snuff it.
But……….then…………I get there, and this one little pup out of the 8 is under the cabinet, the others are all over me biting and pulling on me and jumping up being crazy, not a cuddler or puppy breath to be gotten, when all of a sudden, as soon as I sit down on the floor with the others, this little thing, sprints out, jumps in my lap, crawls up my belly, into my jacket, onto my chest, sticks her nose under my hair on my neck and proceeds to fall asleep in my jacket and my arms. INSIDE my jacket, she was there before I even knew what the heck she was doing. And she stayed there for the hour I was there, just quietly sleeping in my jacket and never moved a muscle except to lick my neck a time or two and sigh. It was KISMET! The only other dog that ever did that was CHIEF. I don’t know if it was some devine intervention or what or maybe she just needed out of the chaos and needed me as badly as I needed her but it was just done for her. She was screaming pick me pikc me I am the perfect fit to your needs. It was the hardest thing ever to put her down and walk away with out her. When I put her down she crawled off and went back to under the cabinet and laid down. She cried when I left the kitchen and all the other pups and talked to the owner for a few minutes, a long sad sorrowful cry…………I knew I was in trouble then.
I went back to the shop, and worked all day beside the hubby, and when it was all done for the day I texted the guy to see if he still had her before I tried to broach the subject of a newby in our lives with him. I knew he said he wasn’t ready after the other dog and he was still working thru it but I really didn’t know what to do. I knew when he said that he still had her and she was the only female left. He had placed all the girls but her and they only had 3 boys left but she was still there, so I had to talk to the hubby, there was just nothing else I could do. I did it and he was very good about it. I tried to tell him that I was afraid to ask cause I knew he might not be ready but he told me he knew that I needed it and that it wasn’t about him, he wanted me to be happy again, and smile and laugh and color and be me. He knew I needed this and that if one of them had said pick me Im perfect for you then it was to be and we would go and pick her up and look. I wanted him to be ok with it I wouldn’t take her if he wasn’t able to put him whole heart into it as well and that is what made the other dogs what they are and were. Chief was so special because we made him that way. He was what we made him, he was showered with love and attention and he was so awesome cause he was just made that way! We did that and he picked up, it was far to short a time for he had a job to do and he did it so well that is why it hurt so bad to loose him but he was all that cause we put our hearts into him as he did with us.
So I didn’t want to get another one that he wasn’t ready for and he wouldn’t put his heart into as it wouldn’t be fair to the puppy at all. But he said that he just needed a push and that it wasn’t about just him this was for us and me as her wanted his wife to be happy again and I had lost it since I lost my Chief. So we went and talked to them again and met the wife of the owner of the pups and she spilled the beans on this puppy. Apparently when I had gone to look at them earlier, he had asked alot of question and we had talked and he liked what her heard and saw so much that he told people all day long including his wife that had been at work that they were not going to give that puppy to anybody else but me. He could have sold her to every person that had come that day cause she was in the corner and quiet except when I was there. She was his and his brothers favorite puppy to begin with and they wanted to keep her themselves but she was not a good fit for their house so they wanted her to go to the best home possible. Not that they didn’t want all the pups to go to the right homes and they were being picky about where they all went, but she was special and if they didn’t find the very right home they would find a way to keep her themselves. But they knew when she came to me and saw us together that she had to be mine. they apparently waited all day for me to call back and tell them I was taking her and when they finally got the text they were very happy. He had told his wife about me and how the pup reacted and that they couldn’t let her go to anyone else. She was so delightful to meet and she was great and when I walked in the house she heard my voice and came out and jumped up on the gate and woofed at me, and the minute hubby saw her he said that she must be the one for us with out even knowing that she was the one that I wanted. I picked her up and she immediately crawled into my arms inside my jacket, up on my chest and put her nose under the hair on my neck and that is where she stayed till we got home.
Hubby is just adoring her, and he even picked her name. DAZEY………….like daisy but different…………..She is a joy to behold and has healed us in so many ways you can’t imagine. The other dogs are great and they actually enjoy having the room to roam outside and so it’s all good at our house. Hubby even took her outside a few times to potty and stayed a bit late this am to have some quiet time with her before he went to work, but told me that he was working a short day so she didn’t have to be home alone hardly at all. He is thinking he should take her to work with him so that she isn’t alone but then he thinks that it might be a bad thing cause he would have to take her outside to potty and would worry she would catch something and he can’t have that so home it is, better safe then sorry and if she has to have a couple hours of alone time it will be ok till she is fully vaccinated and safe to be out in public. He even said that he will be sure to take his shoes off outside the front door and leave his slippers insde the door to be sure that when he is out doing service he doesn’t bring anything home to our baby.
He is so taken with her she has totally stole his big soft heart. He just melts like butter in sunshine when she looks up at him and wimpers. he is so whipped! And she is like therapy for our hearts.
So welcome the Newbie…………..DAZEY……………..here’s hoping for a long and happy life with her.
Oh and in July we will be getting another one for company if one comes of the breeding and says pick me too!!!!
happy and smiles all around and healing better……..happiness has returned to our house……………..